Cycle 6, Day 15

by Lesley on May 25, 2012 · 2 comments

in cancer

Today started at 1:00am when Jonathan got home from his softball game. I had fallen asleep on the couch waiting for him. The team lost but they’d stayed out late celebrating anyway. It felt like we were already ushering the day in with joy and food and friends.

Anna woke up around 2:00am, as she usually does the night before chemo. (It’s uncanny, her ability to sleep well every night except the nights before chemo.) I uttered a slightly dramatic prayer of┬ádesperation: “God- seriously? PLEASE get that baby back to sleep.” Let me be one to admit that I don’t normally pray over Anna’s sleep habits. But last night I did, and last night it worked, and I’m just going to give God a little credit for answering even the most selfish requests sometimes.

We went to Doughbot this morning for celebration doughnuts. I hate doughnuts but everyone says this place is amazing so I decided to be a sweet wife and go, for Jonathan’s sake. We both ate two fancy gourmet doughnuts, and they were every bit as wonderful as we’d been told. But don’t count me a convert quite yet.

On the way to the hospital I played our “chemo playlist.” We have listened to those songs countless times since that first treatment…160 days ago. I won’t ever forget our drive to his first chemo, listening to David Crowder’s How He Loves, and weeping.


“Cycle 6, Day 15,” said Dr. Cen when he entered the exam room.

It was doctor language for: “Today is the last day of treatment. The day you’ve been waiting for is finally here.”

Dr. Cen gave Jonathan the standard check-up, even though we already know the cancer is gone. Eye check, throat check, pulse check, lymph node check. He examined his skin and his feet, and asked how he’s feeling. I sat on the chair across the room like I always do.

I handed him a bag of tea we purchased at the mall yesterday. His nurses said he likes tea, so we bought a generous amount…because really… how can you appropriately thank someone that helped you fight for your life? Dr. Cen has never been one for lengthly conversations but he’s always given Jonathan attention, respect and care. We are so grateful for all three of those things.

Chemo followed the doctor’s appointment. We presented all of Jonathan’s nurses with flowers. They are lovely ladies–each so compassionate, funny and patient. It takes a special person to work with people who are very sick. We are incredibly grateful for them too.

Throughout the day, we felt the love of friends and family and even strangers. Everyday is worth celebrating, but somedays are even more important than others. Today is one of those days. I said this on Facebook but I’ll say it again here: from the very beginning of this journey through cancer, I felt God had given us an army. One morning last January, I literally saw a vision: us, holding a big shield up, ready for battle. And then…all of YOU behind us, stretching for miles and miles and miles.

You who called, and texted, and sent flowers.

You who brought us meals.
You who mailed cards, just because.
You who dragged in our trash cans off the street every week.
You who babysat, over and over and over again.
You who sent us money for date nights.
You who made donations to LLS.
You who signed up to be on the bone marrow registry list.
You who cleaned our house.
You who prayed fervently and with great faith.
You who weren’t afraid to cry with us.

I have a lot more thanking to do, and a lot more reflecting to do. I know Jonathan does too. Today may be a milestone on the cancer journey but I’m certainly not planning to stop writing about it. I just couldn’t go to sleep without telling you how full we are on God’s grace, His timing, His healing, His people.

{Giving the “12” sign for 12 chemo treatments completed.}
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Lesley, I didn't get the memo about making signs on FB until it was too late, but last night Chris and I were raving to each other about what a powerful testimony all those signs were - and are. Chris said: "This is what Facebook can do for good in the world- it can make us all feel part of one big powerful team." To God be the Glory! Team Mollkoy


I can't stop celebrating this in my head!