Sometimes I struggle with guilt.
It’s a nasty emotion that I imagine a lot of people also struggle with, but hate to admit.
These days I’m struggling with the guilt of needing so much. Needing help with Anna. Needing help making food. Needing help cleaning my house. Needing time alone.
I’m also feeling guilt over the things I’m not doing. Not making money. Not writing as much as I’d like. Not running consistently like I used to. Not pruning my rose bushes. Not calling people back.
I even feel guilt when I’m having a good day–which happens a lot actually. Someone will look at me with sad puppy dog eyes and say, “How are you really doing?” and I say, “I’m actually doing really well today.” They look at me like they don’t believe me…like I’m lying or pretending to be strong. Their expression makes me believe I should feel a certain way but I’m feeling another way. And then, well, guilt.
What is wrong with me?
Do you ever struggle with guilt?