It is easier for me to act like Martha than Mary.
It’s easier to spend all week Googling Bundt cake recipes for Easter, and writing ridiculously long to-do lists that include things like: “Wash car. Buy Mother’s Day gifts. Mop floors. Clean fireplace. Shower (as if I’d forget). Look for chalkboard cleaner. Find out when Southwest Airline miles expire. Stretch my back. Grocery store. Remind Jonathan to find part for the washer. Find white maternity capris. Prep for bible study.”
It’s easier to think about (and then stress about) all the activities I’m not involved in at church. It’s easier to say yes to many of them because it’s what I think I should do, not necessarily what I want to do.
It’s easier to drive to work each day strategizing how I’ll get as much accomplished as I possibly can, rather than asking God for how He wants me to spend the precious hours He’s gifted me to use.
It’s easier to worry than to pray. It’s easier to complain than give it up God.
It’s my tendency to act like Martha, except when I do I just feel tired at the end of the day instead of peaceful.
Amy gave me a wonderful devotional a few weeks ago. It’s called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Here is today’s entry, written from God’s perspective:
“I am always with you, so you have no reason to be afraid. Your fear often manifests itself in excessive planing. Your mind is so accustomed to this pattern of thinking that you are only now becoming aware of how pervasive it is and how much it hinders your intimacy with Me. Repent of this tendency and resist it, whenever you realize you are wandering down this well worn path. Return to My Presence, which always awaits you in the present moment. I accept you back with no condemnation.” (Psalm 46:10, Romans 8:1)
Mary lived in the present moment. I’m trying to be more like her this week. I’m wondering if anyone can relate to this struggle? Do you have a tendency to over plan? Is it easier for you to be like Martha–busy taking care of all the details rather than sitting at Jesus’ feet?
If you answered no to all the above questions, then you’re a saint who’s obviously perfect. That being the case, can you at least tell me how to resist eating the leftover bunny Bundt cake from today’s meal? I’m not sure if I can work on both my excessive planning issue and my sugar issue at the same time…