Before Jonathan’s scan last month, I wasn’t ready for summer to end. When he got diagnosed last October, it came just as autumn officially arrived in Sacramento; chilling news that seemed to blow in with the leaves and stick around through all of the long and dark winter months.
With summer’s onset came the end of chemotherapy, and we soaked in every sunny warm morning, every chirping bird, every roar of the lawn mower and splash of the pool. And so it makes sense that I didn’t want this magical time to end, right?
On my sweaty morning walk with Anna, I found myself bitter about the seemingly never ending heat. Here we are again, October, and it’s still been in the upper 90s each day. Sometime over the last few weeks I’ve accepted what’s next; even longed for it. I’m ready to retire my stretched out jean shorts and beat up sandals, both of which have seen better days. I can’t wait to eat warm oatmeal again for breakfast, and drink Chai tea at night by our fire. My boots are at the shoe repair shop, and today I purchased an awesome Calvin Klein goose down jacket at Costco.
I am ready for a change in seasons.
I can’t help but think back two years ago, when life was incredibly different than it is today. We wanted to buy a house, we wanted to have a baby, and I was ready for a new professional challenge.
But just like this summer has lingered, the season we were in wasn’t ready to let us go. Looking back, we needed that time. God knew we were in for a wild two years ahead. I remember telling my girlfriends that I felt antsy for change, and yet knew I should enjoy and embrace the season of calm and normalcy while we had it.
So I guess I just want you to know that if you’re in a season right now that seems like it’s never going to end, be reminded that every summer eventually comes to a close. Sometimes fall is refreshing and brings exciting change; sometimes it arrives with chilly air you’re not prepared for. But the best news about a change in season is that God prepares us for each one, and they never last longer than they’re supposed to.
There is a time for everything; and a season for every activity under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1.
p.s. It’s not too late to join up with the 31 Days to a Fresh Blog Start challenge. Today’s challenge was to post my mission statement but since I did that yesterday, I decided tonight to make a little graphic and post it to my About section. It’s kinda janky looking but I’m over it because I want to go watch New Girl.
p.p.s. The comments you’ve all been leaving today on yesterday’s post have been incredibly touching and motivating. I wish I had embedded comments enabled so that I could respond to all of them individually. It’s on my list of things to figure out how to do. I realized I can really get in my own head without your feedback. So, thank you!